The entries below share a bit about what is happening in my life as I walk the journey that God has placed before me. I am excited to share these thoughts with you and would welcome your comments. May God grant us each the grace to follow Him more closely each day.
Saturday, May 28, 2005
Good Day!
-waffles-they actually turned out:)
-reminders of the love of my heavenly father
-park bench in the sun for writing letters to dear friends
-laughter
-cheap and delicious strawberries-you can't beat $0.50/lb
-walk in the rain
And heaven can only be better!
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Did you ever wonder?
-Why are children disrespectful to adults?
-Why do the taxi operators get so frustrated?
-How can you instill in children a desire to care?
-Why do museums close before their posted closing times?
-Why are elevators so small in Romania?
-Why are words so powerful?
I am guessing that many of these never cross the minds of the multitudes, but they cross mine.
Father, please give me your wisdom and help me to understand those things that you want me to understand in the present. For the rest of the things in life that are beyond understanding in my mind, I trust you.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Friday, May 20, 2005
Pieces
I wonder sometimes if that isn't how God looks down on his children. He sees the pain that is in our lives, sometimes self "inflicted" and longs for us to tell him our hurts. I think he is also willing to walk beside us, supporting us while we hold onto our own pain.
When we arrived at the church, this young girl took some time in the bathroom and emerged with her pants legs rolled up, revealing wounded and bleeding knees. It was only when I could see what was causing the pain that I could do something. We found some bandaids and by the end of the day she seemed to be mostly recovered.
I am so thankful that God knows exactly what causes the pain in our lives, sometimes before we can identify what is causing it in our lives. He is our healer and comforter-even before I can "uncover" my hurts, he is working to bring about healing. Praise God!
Monday, May 16, 2005
Come again?
The first was this morning at the beach. I was in Constanţa for a field retreat this weekend and I decided to take one last walk on the beach before heading back to pile on the bus for the "short" ride home. On my way back toward the hotel, a man walking in the opposite direction asked for the time. After responding in Romanian, he decided to pursue the conversation further-did I live in Constanţa, where did I live in Bucharest, why was I here, was I single, could we walk together? After repeatedly turning down his pleas to walk together I was able to convince him that I needed to be on a bus immediately. Thus ended the interlude.
After arriving back in Bucharest, some 3 hours later than planned, my roommate and I stopped at the grocery store before heading to our apartment. We were obviously conspicuous because of our luggage and "American" look. While standing in line waiting to check out, we were discussing details of the weekend. A friendly man in front of us proceeded to give us advice about taking taxis in Bucharest. After checking out and claiming our luggage, we stepped outside to see him waiting for us. He asked which hotel we lived in and was surprised to learn that we lived in Romania (he was from Denmark here on business). Apparently from this new information, he decided that we weren't helpless women about to be taken advantage of by any passing taxi driver. Who would have known?
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Picking Rice
Later as I considered my actions, I thought about my life. I am so quick to accept only the "grains of rice" in my own life-those things that I think are nourishing for me and somewhat pleasing. I am quick to pick out or avoid those situations or experiences that would be like biting on a rock in the midst of a bite of rice. Whether it is a hard day at school or a difficult situation in a relationship, I am quick to "jump ship".
I recently read a book by John Piper entitled, "The Passion of Jesus Christ". In this book, Piper outlines fifty reasons why Jesus suffered and died. In one of these short chapters "To Obtain for Us All Things That are Good for Us", Piper states, "What then does it mean that because of Christ's death for us God will certainly with him graciously give us 'all things'? It means that he will give us all things that are good for us. All things that we really need in order to be conformed to the image of his Son (Romans 8:29). All things we need in order to attain everlasting joy."
Each situation is being used in my life to bring about God's plan and he will work it for good. Who am I to question what God uses in my life or to easily accept the "easy" situations and shrug off the ones that I find more frustrating or painful?
Later Piper continues, "God will meet every real need, including the ability to rejoice in suffering when many felt needs do not get met. God will meet every real need, including the need for grace to hunger when the felt need for food is not met. The suffering and death of Christ guarantee that God will give us all things that we need to do his will and to give him glory to attain everlasting joy."
Praise God that He is all that we need-for each and every situation. We can do all things through Him.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Strawberries
Monday, May 09, 2005
Mega Image
Saturday, May 07, 2005
Thunder
Bucharest was hit with a thunderstorm that came back again and again during the day yesterday. Scattered throughout were times of sun and calm and then a bolt of lightning and rolling thunder would signal the impending rain. The streets of Bucharest were flooded with the rain when I ventured out and I ended up mostly soaked on my walk home-only intensified because I had left my umbrella at home.
It made me think of how God cleanses us-completely and thoroughly, again and again. He takes and washes everything away-as far as the east is from the west just as the water swept away dirt and debris. It never returns to us. May we allow God to completely cleanse us and allow our dirt and debris to be completely washed away. May we believe that he has truly forgiven us and satan has no business bringing things up again.
Baby Hospital
I arrived at 11:30 expecting that the nurse would bring in bottles around 12. They are fed every three hours whether they are hungry or not. It was after 1:00 when I finally left and still there had been no bottles for these babies. I was alone in a room of seven infants. There were two swings in the room which helped occupy two while I alternated holding the others. Hold one until it stopped crying and then switch to the next one that started crying. It was heartbreaking to have to put babies down that so needed attention and food in order to comfort another.
As I held these babies, it was amazing to be able to offer words of hope "isus te iubeşte" (Jesus loves you) and to be able to talk with them in my limited Romanian and fluent English.
Father, may they know your love. Please watch over each of these children, your children. May you provide for their every need. May they know that they are not alone-for you are with them. Amen
Sunday, May 01, 2005
Hristos a înviat!
Last night I attended a midnight Easter service at the main Orthodox church in Bucharest. There was a large crowd gathered outside of the church even prior to 12. Large screens were set up so many could see what was happening in the entrance of the church. Bells tolled marking the beginning of the service marked with tranditions.
I was amazed at how many Bucharestians ventured outside of their homes at such a late hour to celebrate an event that has no meaning. As a part of the service, we each lit our candle and at least began the journey to our apartments carrying lit candles-to symbolize the light Christ brings to the darkness of this world.
And yet even as candles lit up the city on this night, I was reminded of the great darkness that remains in this city.
Father, may you bring light to the city of Bucharest. May I shine for you in the darkness of this community. Thank you for being the light of the world.